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A Little Princess that I used to Be…

I miss the kind of life that I had before….

When all the things that I wanted are being granted…

Gone are the days that when I wake up in the morning,

   … My favorite breakfast is served… with my favorite chocolate drink beside my favorite plate.

Gone are the days that somebody takes care of me whenever I’m sick,

   … With matching sleepless nights for my aunt just to look over me

Gone are the days that I used to laugh and scream so loud, as if there’s no more tomorrow.

Gone are the days of acting like a child… messing around the living room, watching super cartoons, making my favorite coloring book looks lively, kissing and hugging my aunt as if that’s the last day of my life..

Gone are the days that I almost slept all day in front of the television as I watch my favorite cartoon…

Gone are the days that I wake up so early just to tell her that I love her so much while she’s still asleep…

Gone are the days that I keep on texting from time to time just to remind her that I miss her and that I love her so much…

Gone are the days that I roam around the mall just to look for something that I could give to her… because I wanted to see her smile…

Gone are the days that she used to cook my favorite foods… just to see me eat the right meal…

Gone are the days that we used to stay in the room together just to watch our favorite movie while I lay on her lap all day…

Gone are the days that someone assures me that she’s just on my back whenever I feel down…

Gone are the days that someone hugs me and gives me a cheer… just to uplift my spirit

Gone are the days that somebody scolds me and later will discuss to me the reason why…

Gone are the days of surprises… the days of fun… the days I can say I’ve got the best moment in my life…

Gone are the days that I became a little princess in someone’s life…

God, I badly miss the woman in my life that makes me feel so really special…

I miss her smiles, her caring ways, and her hugging moments as she tells me that she loves me… I miss my TITA so much and how I wish she’s still at my side… taking good care of me as how she did when I was still a little princess in her life.

BITCHY PEOPLE OUT THERE…

It’s hard to trust people because you would never know who would betray you once you turned your back. Even your closest friend can be your worst enemy — and even that someone who you don’t expect to do it, will sometimes do. Wala akong pakielam kung walang sumangayon sa mga sasabihin ko because the things that I will be writing here but these are the things that I’m feeling even before but I prefer to shut my mouth off in order to prevent conflicts. I am not writing this to get other people’s sympathy at hindi din ako nanunumbat – for those people who are narrow-minded.. Don’t waste your time reading this and for those people who knows me deeply – thanks for all the understanding,

I’m tired not with my life, not with the works I have nor with my work itself rather I’m tired of the people around me. I’m not fond of playing dirty games and I am not raised by my parents nor guided by my “nanay nanayan’s” to live in competition because these people instilled in me the concept na wala akong ibang kakompetensya except for my own self. I do believe that people have their unique identities and we are capable of doing a lot of things — I just can’t understand why there are people who enjoys gaining popularity, praises, complements in the expense of other person’s hard work?!  People who always wants to be in the spot light, people who keeps on pretending that they been doing a lot of things but the truth is… they would just do their work when there’s a superior person around. I don’t mean to sound sarcastic but its true… and yet these people enjoy all the complements.

I’m a quite type of person; I know I am not that assertive like some people out there but I know I am assertive when the situation calls. I am not sociable and I don’t have the gift of being “ma-PR” in a lot of situations but I know when I speak I always say what’s in my heart not for the purpose na may masabi ka lang to make the person believe you. I am not perfect I also have my own weaknesses, I never deny that fact. I don’t like competing with my friends rather I am always happy for the achievements of my friends. I never claim for complements in expense of other person’s hard work. I never make people believe that I’m doing a lot of things khet wla naman.. toxic ako OO but I always make it a point that I will produce an output in the end.

What I have achieved now are the fruits of my hard work and determination. Nde ako nakiusap o nagpalakas o nanira ng sino man o nanloko ng tao just for the people to believe me. What you see is what you get. Nde rin ako plastic like other people dhel pag galit ako you would never expect me to talk to you nor smile – and that’s me. I don’t like to utter words that would hurt someone,,, though sometimes I know nakakapagsalita din ako out of anger. I easily give my trust pero pag nasira yun there’s no other means for you to have it again.

After all of these, I still have to deal with them in the real world, they’re just one of the few people who have that kind of attitude, but I still believe in KARM